iam ELVA

Really exhausted. It's officially my last week of school before have two weeks of study leave before the O' Level.
Wow. It's been fast. Especially now. Like many of my older friends told me you will be stressed out. Hmmm... the stressed out and starting to freak out part has just began recently.

Well, iam gonna keep this post short. Really need to sleep. Otherwise i can't focus in class tmr. Probably post whatever i wanted to on Friday or Saturday when i get on the net again.

(Just another month and it's all over...)

With lots of love (and sleepyheads),
ELVA (:

I hate it when iam thinking of something really meaningful and i wanna blog about it, i end up forgetting what it is. Haha. And it is happening now. Maybe 'cos iam watching Big Bang now so iam too 'lost' in watching TOP. i apologise if you can't stand me. Hahahahaha. You haven't seen worse...

Yeah, i think if i can think of what i wanna blog, i will post later (:

I spoke to my paternal granny on the phone just now. Mama, as i call her, always ask the first thing, "El-ba (that's how she pronounce my name after 16 years) eh?" She seems to be mixed up with my siblings and my voice. That's like weird because none of us think so. Then i went on asking how she was and if she had her dinner. Everytime i speak to her, i feel so sorry that i can't be with her when she is so lonely at home ever since Gonggong passed away. Sometimes i just want to stop what iam doing to rush over to see her.
But just now's conversation was amusing because she kept talking on how it rains in Kuching during the night. At the end i kept reminding her to stay healthy, eat well, and and and, remember to close the windows before she sleep. Haha.

I like learning to cook from both of them, make paper dustbins and such. Simple yet fun (: Love you gannies.
 

*And and, really,do i look like i lost weight? My granny ain't the person saying that. Yesterd, when i saw Christine, she doubt it was me from afar and asked if it was me. Hahaha. "Eh! You too stress ah?" 
No no no. Iam perfectly fine.

Iam so ashamed. Haha. It was really stupid how me and Maxine got kinda lost in the airport on Friday. A little funny. Like it ain't our first time there or sth. And our objective: STUDY. It was really dumb how we took the skytrain like over ten times, shuffling between terminals? T3 to T2 to T1 to T3 to T2 to T1 to T3. Yeah, really stupid somehow.
We just can't seem to find a good place to sit and study because BK, Kopitiam, Coffee Bean didn't allow people to study there.
Worse still, we travelled here and there to get to BK for onion rings (Yum!) Haha. Really crazy lah.

Finally when we got down to studying. At the viewing mall in T3. We sat on the floor and study, using the chairs as tables. Man, it was a really ridiculous time there. Firstly, people were walking behind us intentionally just to see what we are doing. LIKE HELLO?! There's one huge area in front of us to walk?! Why the hell are you going behind us when there is lesser space?! Secondly, Townsville Primary was having some fieldtrip there and so there were like little kids running about. But they were cute(: But the weird part was that one instructor (guiding the kids) walked past and said After looking at what we were doing "OH! O Level huh?" 
Ok that was weird! Like Max and I didn't know him and he talked to us. He even told the kids, "SSHHHHH! Keep quiet ok? There are people studying for their O Level. Very important exam you know." I could not help but stare at him. But i think the kids just didn't hear and just continued running and screaming.

Well, time went pass really slowly while we studied. But when we chit chat, time went zoom. Why time why- you are one weirdo i will never understand. At the end of the day, i got blisters because someone took my socks and has yet to return it so the socks that i wore keep dropping... Man. WHERE'S MY LOVELY GREY SOCKS WHEN I WANT THEM?! 

Dear socks, please come back to me.

Ha. My facebook is dying. Well, people have been sending friend requests, games, blah blah blah. Iam just too lazy to update it. So if i take like a million days to add you as a friend, you know why (: Gosh, first it was friendster, then tagger, now facebook. Haha.

I don't understand really. It hurts me too to fight with you. Why am i going on like this with you? It's just hurting both of us.

"I never wanna start a war
you know i never wanna hurt you
don't even know what we're fighting for.
Why does love always feel like a battlefield?"

Paper? Check. Pencil? Check. Mind full of inspiration? Erm, no. But with an addiction, you can draw (: Like Spongebob once said "IMAGINATION" (do the rainbow) Haha. What crap am i saying?! But still, i was in my brother's room and we were listening to Eun Ji Won's Adios. Suddenly something came to mind and i got a pencil and paper and tried to draw Kang Ho Dong but FAILED! Haha. But my brother continued and it was funny.

So here's my little bro's drawing of the 1박 2일 members:

 

Now Hollywood wants to make you think they know what love is.
But I'm a tell you what true love is.
Love is not what you see in the movies.
Its not the ecstasy, its not what you see in that scene
you know what I mean? I'm telling you right now, true love is sacrifice.
Love is thinking about others before you think about yourself
Love is selfless not selfish. Love is God and God is love.
Love is when you lay down your life for another
Whether for your brother, your mother, your father or your sister
Its even laying down your life for your enemies,
That's unthinkable, but think about that
Love is true
Think.

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast
It is not proud. Love is not rude, it is not self-seeking
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs
You see love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, it always perseveres
Love never fails. Love is everlasting
Its eternal, it goes on and on, it goes beyond time
Love is the only thing that will last when you die
But ask the question why? Do you have love?

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love

There is no greater love than this than he who lays down his life for his friends
Now are you willing to lay down your life for your friends?
You're probably willing to lay down your life for your mother
your father, or your best friends
But are you willing to lay down your life for even those that hate you?
I'm going to tell you who did that
The definition of love is Jesus Christ. He is love
The nails in his hands, the thorns in his brow
Hanging on a cross for your sin my sins
That is love he died for you and me while we still hated him
That is love
God is true love, and if you don't know this love
Now is the time to know, perfect love

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love
(repeat)